“This is how your life has to play out, this is how it has to be. We have to go out and get qualifications, get a job, settle down, get married, and have kids. It is bullshit. We’re from fuckin England mate, you know what I’m sayin’, we’re punk rock.”
2009 // 2013
“Though we maybe so far apart you still would have my heart…”
One about try and make an effort.
It never really bothers me not being the best at something.
I wasn’t the best at coloring when I was in kindergarten, I made the guy sat beside me at school to do my homework.
Three years later, I got paid of doing drawings and artworks for my classmates in primary school.
I haven’t got the best handwriting either, my mom was frustrated teaching me how to make an “a”, and from her confession, she spent four square-lined books until I managed to form a decent “a”.
Six years later, I am nominated in the regional calligraphy competition amongst primary school students.
I also did terrible in my first year of primary school, and had to move and repeat in another school. That year, I won the top student award.
And here I am again today, more miserable than ever, realizing that my past five years haven’t been slightest bit productive, in another words, I’ve wasted my time.
Apparently I’ve been stuck in the ultimate comfortable zone and slowly destructing myself. I thought that everything will eventually come to its place. I’ve forgotten that I stopped caring for so long, I am now known as “the one who never made an effort” or “take it easy” guy.
Coming forty five minutes late to an hour lecture, if I even bothered coming.
Taking everything easy, and leave things to the last minute.
Sometimes I can’t even be bothered to wake up and get off my bed all day.
I have become this insensitive lazy sloth, ultimate procrastinator, the kind of personality that everyone - including myself wouldn’t sympathize with.
All I need is a wake up call and I got it today, from a dear friend of mine, he said,
“It’s about time to untether yourself”
So I promise myself from today on,
to wake up at decent hours,
to go to every lectures and seminars,
to work out at least three times a week,
to go to work in a neat outfit,
to smile at least to ten person a day,
and listen to what my friends/lecturers/bosses have to say,
to stop spending money irresponsibly,
to read at least a book in a month,
to learn new languages,
to write a diary,
to stop eating ready-meals and start cooking,
to make an effort with my life,
and start thinking about my future,
to make myself a better person.
and each time I fail to fulfil my target, I will donate £5 to the charity,
because a slightest bit of effort can change the world.
much love x
Shasta Klara Kristi
Life in a nutshell, as told by my father.
These are some of the words from the most inspirational man in my life :
“You’d be surprised on how people conquers the world starts from as simple decision as getting out of bed this morning. start from yourself, start simple, and start right now.”
“Cliché as it is, friends are important. People in reality are built to break you, unless they are convinced you are part of them.”
“It is more essential to be nice than to be clever, better to be loved than to be feared.”
“Pace and lead. It’s all about the right timing.”
“Be yourself. People are going to love you for who you are, and the one who doesn’t, simply not worthy.”
“Relationship is a game of two. Give and take. It’s never good to exceed in one.”
“Smile. Whether you’re an awkward person or just shy, it always works, besides, you don’t have the lips to pout.”
“The only way to make people do things for you is to first master to do those things by yourself.”
“Happiness is success. Crying alone inside a BMW isn’t that great. Trust me, I know the feeling.”
“At the end of the day, we’ll all die. The goal isn’t to live forever, it is to create something that will. Do something don’t just sink.”
“What doesn’t kill you sometimes breaks your legs. Don’t do stupid things like take drugs and jump off the roof.”
“Sex, drugs, and rock and roll seems cool until you catch an STD. Not so rock and roll now, eh?”
“Marry someone who knows you and loves you just the same. Not many people would do that, thank God I found your mom.”
“There’s no distance too far. Love roots in your heart not in your backyard.”
“Love your family. They are the ones who love you at your worst, and be happy for you at your best.”
“Build a relationship with God. It’s good to believe in something.”
“Be principal, don’t be stubborn.”
“Show an effort, give a personal touch in everything you do, that’s what makes it special. People loves being special.”
“Think twice, don’t think thrice. Never overdo.”
Hope that inspires you too,
HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND! x
Much love,
Shasta Klara Kristi
1bring it on 22.
at the end of my 21, I learn that :
friends are important.
it’s essential to make an effort once in a while (at least make people believe so)
when your mom says you’re allergic to milk, she’s not lying, you are really lactose intolerant.
you can survive with £15 a week if you really have to.
eating meat is actually good for your health.
you don’t need to be clever, you need to be nice.
There is always a second chance, it might not come from the same person.
Everything happens for a reason, doesn’t necessarily have to be a good one.
as you grow older, some things become less important than the others.
when your dad says “make sure to watch the sun rises once in a day”, it actually means “staying up til dawn” “wake up early”.
alcohol is only good for cleaning wounds (and the one in the heart doesn’t count).
I might’ve been better off in design industry rather than media.
writing can actually make a living.
Give a personal touch in everything you do, that’s what makes it special.
Truth is, we need to be depressed sometimes, you can’t create something great based on all happiness, people wouldn’t like that.
You’d be surprised on how many people who actually cares about you, and be more surprised of twice the number who doesn’t give a crap. that’s life.
Love your family, they’re the person who loves you at your worst, and be happy for you at your best.
People aren’t always good to you all the time, so is your hair. Tolerate.
It’s okay to be yourself. Best kind of people loves you for who you are.
Love yourself, but most importantly, learn to laugh at yourself.
When the world laughs at you, laugh harder, laughing is good for your health.
it’s okay to do stupid things, that’s how people learn. besides, no one likes a smartypants. ;)
and
getting old is inevitable, growing up is an option.
forever 17, and never stopped learning.
31st October 2012.
love,
Shasta Klara Kristi x
mommy matters.
A lady walked inside the restaurant today and asked for a table for one.
She ordered half pint of lager and requested me to play Billy Joel’s “She’s always a woman”.
Half way eating her appetizer she started to cry and turns out she had a fight with her teenage daughter.
I really don’t know what to say to her, eventhough it really breaks my heart to listen to her story about the girl she loves with all her heart, a cheerful, clever, beautiful young woman she cherishes within every breath she takes, every blink of her eyes, that fragile young baby she longs to hold in her arms everytime she cries, and think of every second of her life til the end of her time. Even when she breaks her heart, I could see the glimpse of joy and pride everytime she mentions her name. She forgives her, and loves her unconditionally.
Because that’s what mothers do.
To forgive, to love, to hold, to care, to cherish, to adore, be proud of you no matter who you are and what you’ve done.
I realize, I might’ve hurt my mom in a million ways too, but she always gives in and never takes back.
Never too late to say I’m sorry, I love you.
and Thank you mom, for always being there.
what’s love gotta do with it?
tolerance.
kindness.
patience.
understanding.
agree to disagree.
solicitude.
supportive.
sharing.
encouraging.
sincere.
to endure.
loyal.
integrity.
sacrifices.
to give without taking.
but LOVE, is to let go.
